The way I see it, we always have two choices: dainty or ragtag scallywag. This is a mere record of my daily decisions as a 24 year old barista on her fcking grind. ^^/
# don't mind me
How come I can’t keep my eyes open when I haven’t turned the lights off, brushed my teeth or anything…but when I actually fight off the sleepiness enough to DO THOSE THINGS, I am wide awake?!
# don't mind me
Life is unfair. You put someone first who puts you second. You study your ass off for a final only to get a C. You give 110% to someone in a relationship who only gives 40%. You’re there for a best friend at 3:00am and the next day they don’t pick up their phone. It seems like you’re giving everyone everything and they’re just walking away with it.
this times a fucking thousand
Yeah, it sucks, but have you ever REALLY appreciated someone the way YOU wish you were appreciated? Think about that one for a sec. But I do feel this way like 90% of the time. To combat it, I try to say something positive cause there’s NOTHING THAT WILL EVER CHANGE THIS about my life, your life, anyone’s life. /rant
I’ve never felt like I deserved the weekend as much as I do right now. This week was exhausting & eye-opening.
The question now is do I use this day to recover & do nothing all day? Or should I be productive & adult both days, even though I’m feeling a cold coming on. AGAIN. ???
I’m trying to stay calm but I’m tired. I had to pee really bad but had to go to the bank to deposit my check from special me. When I finally got home, the clutter in my truck had to come in with me. So I put the empty Tupperware, somen salad, apron etc in my purse and in the other hand, I juggled my laptop, a newspaper with an article I wanted to read, my pay stub, my keys and my huge water bottle. Of course I closed the door on my purse, who wouldn’t in this fucking annoying situation? Waddled over to the door and of course just getting my keys into position to even INSERT into the lock is frustrating as all hell, lets not even discuss the feat it was to get the thing to turn and open. Zavi was in my way, of course. I HAVE A SHITLOAD OF STUFF IN MY ARMS I LOVE YOU BUT COULD YOU LIKE GET OUT OF MY WAY FOR A FEW SECONDS?
I stumble to my room where my toe gets stubbed on the gate to my room. Of course. The pain in my toe is like a catalyst for the need to urinate and all I can think about is putting ALL THIS STUFF DOWN and go pee. But I think to myself, I’ve earned a little blog-reading on the potty, so I take my laptop into the bathroom and sit down and start to relax…
The internet’s not working. So I’m typing this on my phone.
My rage was interrupted by a phone call from Toni on his break at work. I calmed down, pooped, and made some tea. My internet came back on. Everything was okay and I feel silly for being so angry. Why can’t I just be apprecitive for the things I have? Why can’t ANYONE?
My life’s good. Better than most, and that’s not being cocky, that’s being BLESSED. Sometimes I forget.
Treat me like the dirt.
Water me with your secrets,
then watch our love grow.
Weird dreams prompted me to look back on MY decisions.
I don’t have any deep dark secrets, really. Not anymore anyway.
I’m kinda an open book. Every facet of me is visible.
I guess I’ll just keep looking for answers elsewhere.
do you ever just stare at your homework and cry
I can’t believe I’ve been TOO BUSY to be on tumblr.
- Coffee shop job
- Japanese demo job
- OH YAH GOT ANOTHER JOB TOO
- School & school related headaches
No time to relax so when I get even an hour of free time I’m like ZOMG TUMBLR PINTEREST JOURNAL SHOPONLINE PAYBILLZ RESEARCHCRAFTSTUFF POOP NAP FINDHEALTHYRECIPES GROCERYSHOP
…and I feel busy again :/
SO MAD RIGHT MEOW ><
It just so happens to be the start of a new year, but in no way is this a “new years weight loss” type deal. Cause I hate that.
My school makes me not want to try hard at anything. I’ve made better powerpoints in elementary school than the ones my classmates got pretty much standing ovations from my professor this semester. So I feel like I just wanna make a simple 5-slide thing and get it done and still get an A. But I know I could do so much better of a presentation…everyone’s lack of drive and care just makes me not want to bother. I just wanna finish it so I can watch another Breaking Bad.
When I become a rich person, I’m going to be the kind that DOESN’T make everyone they come into contact with want to slaughter them in a disgusting and publicly humiliating way.